So I found out today that there’s nothing wrong with me at all. Nothing wrong that my job did not turn out to be as perfect as I would have first thought it would be, nothing wrong that I did not pick up any real skills after working for 6 months within an organization. It’s not wrong and definitely not my fault that life turns out the way it is.
I have such high standards for myself, kept wanting to blame myself whenever things don’t work out well in my life, but life is bigger than that and I keep forgetting that I’m only here to serve God’s purpose on earth. Whenever I forget that and get too comfortable with my own life, things just go awry. It’s not that it’s a curse or something, but then imagine if I don’t understand the purpose of my existence. I’d probably be very bitter or very unforgiving perhaps, well I won’t know, but like I’ve always said, everything happens for a reason. There’s no accident at all, life turned out exactly the way we wanted it to be, because everyone is in control with their own destiny. It’s either we choose to live it or push aside.
I’ve felt more at peace with myself now that reality sets in. That soon I will be jobless, wondering when my next ‘mullah’ is going to come by. It’s going to be very different and I wish that my parents will have more faith in me instead of worrying. I want to prove not only to them but to most people that has ever doubted the power of prayer. I may not have the best business plans, or the best product or service to offer to the world, but I know I have my Heavenly Father’s blessings. I just need to continue to believe that I can do it and He will bless every efforts along the way